Charlie Rain Mullin
Originally written in February, 2012
A Mother: A woman who assumes a relation to a child, provides safekeeping, nurtures, and shows affection to that child.
Growing up, I found it hard to understand the role of a mother until I was blessed with the opportunity to become one. When you are a child yourself, it’s hard to realize how important the love your mother shuns upon you and you find yourself taking for granted her discipline, hard work, and caring as she so desperately tries to build a bond with you to show you how much you mean to her.
On September 27, 2007, my life was changed forever. I remember distinctively the fear that overcame me as the birth of my child concluded and they placed my daughter on my stomach and she lay full of life right before me. All of a sudden, my life flashed before my eyes and emotion conquered my exhausted and baring body. I was now responsible for raising, providing, and protecting another human being besides myself... a human being that I created... a life, that I was privileged to be given and a love that I will cherish forever.
As I feared for my daughter already within that first five minutes of her being presented into my life, I then realized that this fear stemmed from the abundance of love that I already encompassed for this little person, this child that I was destined to mold and shape to become the most beautiful creature that she possibly could.
Having a child provides a parent with a love that is almost unbearable. A love that is indescribable, one that no other person can give besides the child themselves.... its irreplaceable. My life no longer belongs to me, it belongs to my daughter. It is my duty and soul purpose to show her the *beauty life has to offer her, and remind her on a day to day basis that she has the power to *show the world the warmth of her smile and make the world a better place. I now no longer live for me, but I live for her.
As I write this, tears already choke up within me as the love of my daughter rushes through my body and overwhelms my soul with beauty and magnificence. And I cry... tears of joy, as I try and put into words a love that fuels my every day for existence, a love that is so strong and makes me so gratified, but also scares me to death as it determines every move I make, and I hope to only make those that will benefit her. With the determination of a mother, I find it a blessing each day to be able to live my life in a way that provokes goodness and gentleness and enables my daughter to live a bountiful and meaningful life.
Everyday, I am fortunate to be in the presence of my daughter, Miss Charlie Rain Mullin. She exudes a beauty about her that nothing in this world can exceed. She has glistening, elegant, flowing red hair that seizes the eye of her every spectator. She has deep, wide greenish, light brown eyes that transpire an authentic innocence that melts my core. Her pure, plush, and silky fair skin resembles that of a porcelain doll. She has delicate rosy cheeks and soft, red tinged, plump lips that reveal her change of mood when prompted. The middle section of her upper lip still slightly protrudes over the bottom one when she sleeps and it reminds me of those wonderful sleepless nights when she was a baby and I would just sit and watch her snooze even though I had already been up for 23 out of 24 hours of the day. Charlie has a perfectly sloped button nose that she squinches when she laughs or makes a funny face. She has a perfectly aligned petite body that is symmetrically correct with the exception of her uniquely shaped toes that she unfortunately acquired from me. Her smile demonstrates an unadulterated bliss that it automatically transports a feeling of delight within my heart and soul. The sound of her voice is like that of a soft melodious symphony and it communicates like a bible verse that lifts your essence out of the deepest mayhem. She has a contagious laugh that makes the most bitter character giggle inside. Her spirit and presence is so exuberant that it radiates a heartwarming merriment throughout the room. Her sincerity and pureness reveal a light within my world that enables me to move past any obstacles that come my way.
Charlie has a fondness for music and the ability to interpret its meaning and it rings through her body and sways her limbs to the harmonious beat it was meant to inspire. She has a passion for knowledge and has the ability to muster up the most extraordinary questions that enlighten her mind. From wanting to know how music comes out of the radio, to why does God make animals different from people, to how is water made, and why cant we just give all the kids in the word dollies and make them all happy, she has a mind that sparks such an intriguing mentality and it works in such an intricate way that while she runs with those thoughts, she also acquires a clumsiness that enables her to shrug off the little obstacles in life that she so frequently stumbles upon. Her ability to observe the world around her to the point that she notices the lady in purple next to us in line that isn’t happy because of her facial expressions, demonstrates to me that her little heart and mind will be compassionate and accepting to all personalities around her. She has a dramatic sense about her that allows me to know she will stand proud by her beliefs and demand to be heard, however, she also exudes a gentle caring character that I know she will present herself with tactic and care as to not hurt those around her with her boasting personality. Its astonishing to me how intelligent Charlie is, I’ve never seen someone so observant to detail that she knows exactly the right time to grab my face with her little delicate hands, look me in the eyes and tell me she loves me. Charlie Rain Mullin, I love you more than you will ever know. And while I will continue to tell you and show you every day that I love you to infinity, I will continue to be amazed every time I hear your rebuttal “hello mom, I love you more than that”!
Charlie Rain, it will be my promise that *whenever a door closes before you, I will help show you the way to an open door. I promise to be a shoulder to cry on whenever you need it and I want you know that through *every mistake is a smile and gracefulness that can be learned. I promise to provide a sense of structure for your life that will not overwhelm you with discouragement. I promise to show you how to be thankful and *give back to the world more than you can take from it. I promise to provide a healthy environment for you that will allow you to perform your life under any circumstance. I promise to stand by your side, encourage you, believe in you, not judge you, but accept you in every way as you. I promise to support all your dreams and aspirations in life and help you accomplish them when you need it. And while I promise to always share my opinion to help direct you in a positive way, I will always listen to you and respect you as a growing human being. I promise to show you not only the good in life, but also the bad so that you may lesson any worries you may have and find it in your heart to have the desire to do good in the world and always enlighten the hearts around you with love and compassion. I promise to show you how to ease every day through cherishing every moment that is presented to you and not take for granted this life you were blessed with. I promise to show you and let you know that no matter what you encounter in life, that you will always be loved.
I can only attempt to put into words the way my child makes me feel, but will never be able to fully express the joy she brings me and what she does for me because it is so complex and indefinable. I can only hope that one day she will experience a love like this, that she will understand my love for her and what she has done and will always do for me. It’s a love that is untouchable, so pure, so genuine, so meaningful that it brings a purpose and aw to my life and I hope it leaves her soul peaceful and fulfilled.
I pray that all you parents take the time to adore your child and preserve your child’s innocence within your heart and protect it with every inch of your life. And take the time to thank your child for everything they do for you. No one in this world can give you what your child gives you, please don’t take that for granted. Know that your child is your opportunity to shine, if you shine, they will shine, if you show them the way, the truth, and the life, they will live a life through a way of truth.
Charlie Rain, you are my life, and I will protect you and love you for the rest of yours!
Sincerely,
Your Mother
*Credits to Rascal Flatts, "My Wish"; as it is the words from this song that I used to listen and inspire more thoughts in this blog as you can recognize versus throughout the blog. This is my song to my beautiful daughter.
Originally written in February, 2012, and updated April 10, 2015
A Mother: A woman who assumes a relation to a child, provides safekeeping, nurtures, and shows affection to that child.
Growing up, I found it hard to understand the role of a mother until I was blessed with the opportunity to become one. When you are a child yourself, it’s hard to realize how important the love your mother shuns upon you and you find yourself taking for granted her discipline, hard work, and caring as she so desperately tries to build a bond with you to show you how much you mean to her.
On September 27, 2007, my life was changed forever. I remember distinctively the fear that overcame me as the birth of my child concluded and they placed my daughter on my stomach and she lay full of life right before me. All of a sudden, my life flashed before my eyes and emotion conquered my exhausted and baring body. I was now responsible for raising, providing, and protecting another human being besides myself... a human being that I created... a life, that I was privileged to be given and a love that I will cherish forever.
As I feared for my daughter already within that first five minutes of her being presented into my life, I then realized that this fear stemmed from the abundance of love that I already encompassed for this little person, this child that I was destined to mold and shape to become the most beautiful creature that she possibly could.
Having a child provides a parent with a love that is almost unbearable. A love that is indescribable, one that no other person can give besides the child themselves.... its irreplaceable. My life no longer belongs to me, it belongs to my daughter. It is my duty and soul purpose to show her the *beauty life has to offer her, and remind her on a day to day basis that she has the power to *show the world the warmth of her smile and make the world a better place. I now no longer live for me, but I live for her.
As I write this, tears already choke up within me as the love of my daughter rushes through my body and overwhelms my soul with beauty and magnificence. And I cry... tears of joy, as I try and put into words a love that fuels my every day for existence, a love that is so strong and makes me so gratified, but also scares me to death as it determines every move I make, and I hope to only make those that will benefit her. With the determination of a mother, I find it a blessing each day to be able to live my life in a way that provokes goodness and gentleness and enables my daughter to live a bountiful and meaningful life.
Everyday, I am fortunate to be in the presence of my daughter, Miss Charlie Rain Mullin. She exudes a beauty about her that nothing in this world can exceed. She has glistening, elegant, flowing red hair that seizes the eye of her every spectator. She has deep, wide greenish, light brown eyes that transpire an authentic innocence that melts my core. Her pure, plush, and silky fair skin resembles that of a porcelain doll. She has delicate rosy cheeks and soft, red tinged, plump lips that reveal her change of mood when prompted. The middle section of her upper lip still slightly protrudes over the bottom one when she sleeps and it reminds me of those wonderful sleepless nights when she was a baby and I would just sit and watch her snooze even though I had already been up for 23 out of 24 hours of the day. Charlie has a perfectly sloped button nose that she squinches when she laughs or makes a funny face. She has a perfectly aligned petite body that is symmetrically correct with the exception of her uniquely shaped toes that she unfortunately acquired from me. Her smile demonstrates an unadulterated bliss that it automatically transports a feeling of delight within my heart and soul. The sound of her voice is like that of a soft melodious symphony and it communicates like a bible verse that lifts your essence out of the deepest mayhem. She has a contagious laugh that makes the most bitter character giggle inside. Her spirit and presence is so exuberant that it radiates a heartwarming merriment throughout the room. Her sincerity and pureness reveal a light within my world that enables me to move past any obstacles that come my way.
Charlie has a fondness for music and the ability to interpret its meaning and it rings through her body and sways her limbs to the harmonious beat it was meant to inspire. She has a passion for knowledge and has the ability to muster up the most extraordinary questions that enlighten her mind. From wanting to know how music comes out of the radio, to why does God make animals different from people, to how is water made, and why cant we just give all the kids in the word dollies and make them all happy, she has a mind that sparks such an intriguing mentality and it works in such an intricate way that while she runs with those thoughts, she also acquires a clumsiness that enables her to shrug off the little obstacles in life that she so frequently stumbles upon. Her ability to observe the world around her to the point that she notices the lady in purple next to us in line that isn’t happy because of her facial expressions, demonstrates to me that her little heart and mind will be compassionate and accepting to all personalities around her. She has a dramatic sense about her that allows me to know she will stand proud by her beliefs and demand to be heard, however, she also exudes a gentle caring character that I know she will present herself with tactic and care as to not hurt those around her with her boasting personality. Its astonishing to me how intelligent Charlie is, I’ve never seen someone so observant to detail that she knows exactly the right time to grab my face with her little delicate hands, look me in the eyes and tell me she loves me. Charlie Rain Mullin, I love you more than you will ever know. And while I will continue to tell you and show you every day that I love you to infinity, I will continue to be amazed every time I hear your rebuttal “hello mom, I love you more than that”!
Charlie Rain, it will be my promise that *whenever a door closes before you, I will help show you the way to an open door. I promise to be a shoulder to cry on whenever you need it and I want you know that through *every mistake is a smile and gracefulness that can be learned. I promise to provide a sense of structure for your life that will not overwhelm you with discouragement. I promise to show you how to be thankful and *give back to the world more than you can take from it. I promise to provide a healthy environment for you that will allow you to perform your life under any circumstance. I promise to stand by your side, encourage you, believe in you, not judge you, but accept you in every way as you. I promise to support all your dreams and aspirations in life and help you accomplish them when you need it. And while I promise to always share my opinion to help direct you in a positive way, I will always listen to you and respect you as a growing human being. I promise to show you not only the good in life, but also the bad so that you may lesson any worries you may have and find it in your heart to have the desire to do good in the world and always enlighten the hearts around you with love and compassion. I promise to show you how to ease every day through cherishing every moment that is presented to you and not take for granted this life you were blessed with. I promise to show you and let you know that no matter what you encounter in life, that you will always be loved.
I can only attempt to put into words the way my child makes me feel, but will never be able to fully express the joy she brings me and what she does for me because it is so complex and indefinable. I can only hope that one day she will experience a love like this, that she will understand my love for her and what she has done and will always do for me. It’s a love that is untouchable, so pure, so genuine, so meaningful that it brings a purpose and aw to my life and I hope it leaves her soul peaceful and fulfilled.
I pray that all you parents take the time to adore your child and preserve your child’s innocence within your heart and protect it with every inch of your life. And take the time to thank your child for everything they do for you. No one in this world can give you what your child gives you, please don’t take that for granted. Know that your child is your opportunity to shine, if you shine, they will shine, if you show them the way, the truth, and the life, they will live a life through a way of truth.
Charlie Rain, you are my life, and I will protect you and love you for the rest of yours!
Sincerely,
Your Mother
*Credits to Rascal Flatts, "My Wish"; as it is the words from this song that I used to listen and inspire more thoughts in this blog as you can recognize versus throughout the blog. This is my song to my beautiful daughter.
Originally written in February, 2012, and updated April 10, 2015
"whenever a door closes before you, I will help show you the way to an open door." My problem is refraining from kicking the door in when someone shuts a door in my little girl's face. Sometimes the hardest part of being a parent is watching your child fail. Not just because of the intense pain you feel for them but because of the restraint you have to show in those situations. It's so easy to be the screaming little league parent but your job as a parent isn't to prevent failures but to help them to the"next door".
ReplyDelete