You
I think about you often, why? I'm not sure. It's just one of those things. It's like a piece of my heart is out there and I keep thinking about it. For some reason that piece belongs to you and you still have the power in your hands.
From time to time I can still feel your touch. If I close my eyes I can go back to the way it felt. How is it that one person has the magic to send that tingle down your back where your chest gets tight and you have to breathe in deep to keep yourself from passing out? That gulp and exhale is something that most long for. That feeling where it's just you and me and nothing else. The feeling of letting everything else in the world disappear for one moment. The feeling of surrender. The feeling of safety. The feeling of your heart racing. The chill. What is it that creates that? Is that what they call chemistry? Did we have chemistry? Will I ever get that feeling again? Will it ever feel the same a year from now as it did with you?
I don't regret how things ended up but always wonder why they ended up the way they did. I know there is a reason, but it's one that I'm still looking for. I've always loved you and will always love you, but despite the feeling that I long for in others that YOU had, we were not meant to be.
It's weird that all I have to do is look at you and everything comes back. Will it always be that way? Will that feeling ever disappear or will I always have to hold back every time I see you or talk to you? I sit and wonder why. I am completely happy with the road I'm on and I don't wonder why we're not together, but why we are together. If it's not to share that feeling or to share our smiles, then why? What is our purpose in eachothers life?
We'll always connect in that way that no one will understand. We'll always have that understanding that no one else will see. But do I trust you as I did before? I do, I want to, but is it the same for you? I will always be here for you. I could never leave you behind. But why? And for some reason I know you can never leave me behind no matter how many times you get mad at me. If you really wanted to you would have already done it. If I really wanted to, I would have already done it. But we don't.
There's a reason we still connect. One that is for both of us to figure out and will come with time. Despite the hurt we have cast upon one another there is still love. One that will last a life time. One that we can't turn our backs on but one that can only go as far as a friendship or family bond. I've decided it's a love hate thing. The things I hate about you only make me want to help you and be there for you. And the things I love about you only make me hate you because I know that you are a wonderful person. In the beginning I was convinced I would spend the rest of my life with you. That still hasn't changed. Although it hasn't turned out the way I thought, I think you will still be apart of the rest of my life. That fact hurts but I rather have you in my life in some way then not in it at all.
I don't want to spend time remembering our old connections, but I want to look forward to the connections that we are able to discover in the future. Sometimes it may seem that our relationship should be what it was, but remember that it's not for a reason. Only know that I didn't anticipate things to turn out this way, but that I'm happy that they did. Not because I lost you but because I gained a part of you that I feel I didn't have before. Sometimes what we thought was supposed to be wasn't supposed to be at all and so the reason for it ending up the way it is now.
From time to time I can still feel your touch. If I close my eyes I can go back to the way it felt. How is it that one person has the magic to send that tingle down your back where your chest gets tight and you have to breathe in deep to keep yourself from passing out? That gulp and exhale is something that most long for. That feeling where it's just you and me and nothing else. The feeling of letting everything else in the world disappear for one moment. The feeling of surrender. The feeling of safety. The feeling of your heart racing. The chill. What is it that creates that? Is that what they call chemistry? Did we have chemistry? Will I ever get that feeling again? Will it ever feel the same a year from now as it did with you?
I don't regret how things ended up but always wonder why they ended up the way they did. I know there is a reason, but it's one that I'm still looking for. I've always loved you and will always love you, but despite the feeling that I long for in others that YOU had, we were not meant to be.
It's weird that all I have to do is look at you and everything comes back. Will it always be that way? Will that feeling ever disappear or will I always have to hold back every time I see you or talk to you? I sit and wonder why. I am completely happy with the road I'm on and I don't wonder why we're not together, but why we are together. If it's not to share that feeling or to share our smiles, then why? What is our purpose in eachothers life?
We'll always connect in that way that no one will understand. We'll always have that understanding that no one else will see. But do I trust you as I did before? I do, I want to, but is it the same for you? I will always be here for you. I could never leave you behind. But why? And for some reason I know you can never leave me behind no matter how many times you get mad at me. If you really wanted to you would have already done it. If I really wanted to, I would have already done it. But we don't.
There's a reason we still connect. One that is for both of us to figure out and will come with time. Despite the hurt we have cast upon one another there is still love. One that will last a life time. One that we can't turn our backs on but one that can only go as far as a friendship or family bond. I've decided it's a love hate thing. The things I hate about you only make me want to help you and be there for you. And the things I love about you only make me hate you because I know that you are a wonderful person. In the beginning I was convinced I would spend the rest of my life with you. That still hasn't changed. Although it hasn't turned out the way I thought, I think you will still be apart of the rest of my life. That fact hurts but I rather have you in my life in some way then not in it at all.
I don't want to spend time remembering our old connections, but I want to look forward to the connections that we are able to discover in the future. Sometimes it may seem that our relationship should be what it was, but remember that it's not for a reason. Only know that I didn't anticipate things to turn out this way, but that I'm happy that they did. Not because I lost you but because I gained a part of you that I feel I didn't have before. Sometimes what we thought was supposed to be wasn't supposed to be at all and so the reason for it ending up the way it is now.
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