Untouchable
You will never grasp the pain you cause me.
You know how to clinch my heart and hold on so that every beat feels like there's a rubber band wrapped tightly around it.
Your anger pierces my veins as if there is ice cold fluid running through them,
and most of all,
you detour my mind into this suffocation of thoughts that drown me into loneliness.
You and only you do this to me.
You blind me into thinking that the person I once knew is here and I grab onto that rope and pull on it every chance I get.
I love to see you smile from within. I have experienced the compassion in your heart, and I adore when you share the complexity of your profound thoughts with me. You are a very kindhearted person and the depth of your personality is immeasurable.
From the first moment I met you, I knew you would play an important role on my life. Little did I know that this would be the role that you would play.
One altercation, one wrong sentence, and one more drink is that one wrong tug that leads you down the path of destruction. Not only to yourself, but to the people around you and unfortunately to those closest to you. I go from the daily rise and shine to the person you say you never even loved to begin with. That one wrong tug brings back the person who I fear the most. There, begins the roller coaster, once again, to our so called friendship. I trick myself into thinking that I can change you and that all will be in its right place. I believe that deep inside you, you do have the potential to keep that charming and considerate side to you but when you feel exposed and the slightest bit confronted in a vulnerable state, you lash out in the most brusque and abrasive way.
I have always been here for you, stood by you, believed in you, and tried to help you realize this destructive behavior. I have even struggled to remove myself from your life in hopes you would recognize your weakness. But through my weakness, I have not only re-entered your life but have let you re-enter mine. And not only do I now understand that you needed me more than I thought, but I understand that you need me for all the wrong reasons.
I will no longer stand by and listen to have you turn around and insult me. I will not defend your ignorant behavior. While I admire the person you could be, I can't bare to suffer from the person that you are right now. I have fought to have you in my life despite the warnings from those around me because I truly thought you cared. But the way you turn against me at the drop of a hat makes me second guess the sincerity of our time spent when times are good.
When we were kids we used to say that sticks and stones will break our bones but words will never hurt us. Yet, the wounds from the sticks and stones seem to heal a lot quicker than the detrimental words that lay embedded in our minds. I like most the saying, that if you can't say anything nice, you shouldn't say anything at all.
This is what you have taught me.
I pray that I have the strength to learn from you and not make anyone feel the way you make me feel during your hurtful outbursts.
Though we have the most intimate heart to hearts and a bond that is untouchable, because of your inability to accept and change your wrongdoings, our journey has finally come to an end.
You know how to clinch my heart and hold on so that every beat feels like there's a rubber band wrapped tightly around it.
Your anger pierces my veins as if there is ice cold fluid running through them,
and most of all,
you detour my mind into this suffocation of thoughts that drown me into loneliness.
You and only you do this to me.
You blind me into thinking that the person I once knew is here and I grab onto that rope and pull on it every chance I get.
I love to see you smile from within. I have experienced the compassion in your heart, and I adore when you share the complexity of your profound thoughts with me. You are a very kindhearted person and the depth of your personality is immeasurable.
From the first moment I met you, I knew you would play an important role on my life. Little did I know that this would be the role that you would play.
One altercation, one wrong sentence, and one more drink is that one wrong tug that leads you down the path of destruction. Not only to yourself, but to the people around you and unfortunately to those closest to you. I go from the daily rise and shine to the person you say you never even loved to begin with. That one wrong tug brings back the person who I fear the most. There, begins the roller coaster, once again, to our so called friendship. I trick myself into thinking that I can change you and that all will be in its right place. I believe that deep inside you, you do have the potential to keep that charming and considerate side to you but when you feel exposed and the slightest bit confronted in a vulnerable state, you lash out in the most brusque and abrasive way.
I have always been here for you, stood by you, believed in you, and tried to help you realize this destructive behavior. I have even struggled to remove myself from your life in hopes you would recognize your weakness. But through my weakness, I have not only re-entered your life but have let you re-enter mine. And not only do I now understand that you needed me more than I thought, but I understand that you need me for all the wrong reasons.
I will no longer stand by and listen to have you turn around and insult me. I will not defend your ignorant behavior. While I admire the person you could be, I can't bare to suffer from the person that you are right now. I have fought to have you in my life despite the warnings from those around me because I truly thought you cared. But the way you turn against me at the drop of a hat makes me second guess the sincerity of our time spent when times are good.
When we were kids we used to say that sticks and stones will break our bones but words will never hurt us. Yet, the wounds from the sticks and stones seem to heal a lot quicker than the detrimental words that lay embedded in our minds. I like most the saying, that if you can't say anything nice, you shouldn't say anything at all.
This is what you have taught me.
I pray that I have the strength to learn from you and not make anyone feel the way you make me feel during your hurtful outbursts.
Though we have the most intimate heart to hearts and a bond that is untouchable, because of your inability to accept and change your wrongdoings, our journey has finally come to an end.
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